Bobby,
Well I hope your 4th was the best ever, I sorta know that it was. It's hard for us to understand just how perfect your life is now, to try to rationalize the fact there is NO hurt, pain, hate or anger, only happiness.
I still think of you often, now I smile at the memories more than I cry. Although the tears fall at times, I am trying to understand the bigger plan.
I know you family still feels much pain, and that too saddens me. I wish there was a way to help make things easier for ALL of them. What I do know is that if you allow it to the hate will consume your soul (My family has been there). It is way to much energy to waste on such trash. When Bub was murdered, I spent countless hours plotting on how to avenage his death, and short of taking another life, found that only time could heal that wound. But with time, I found that loving Bub, and spending more of my time doing what I could do to preserve his memory was much more rewarding, and made me love him even more. There is still much hate in my heart for his murdered, but I try not to give him the satisfaction of thinking about what a rotten piece of shit he is. He is not worthy of my time or my thoughts. So now that is what I have begun to try to do with the trash that took your life. You are so MUCH more important than them, I would rather fill my thoughts of you, to make me smile, than allow them to breed even more hate in my heart. I believe in karma, as well as a higher power, I can only trust that in time (more sooner than later) they will ALL get theirs. In the meantime I will keep you and Bub in my heart and thoughts, and smile for you made the world a better place. Bobby, I have not heard ONE person say ONE bad thing about you, that truly is special. What an impact you had on the lives you've touched. What beautiful memories you have left for us to cherish........Thanx
Take care of your family, for I know now that heavens take care of you, and so many others that I miss. Funny people talk about wishing they could see you one more time, or talk to you one more time, I see you and talk to you more now than I did when you traveled the earth. I still wish you were here in the physical form, but you are not gone from my life, not now, or ever.
ONE
Katie